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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 27.06.2025 04:00

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Why do Brits drive a lot more dangerously compared to Americans? Is there just no courtesy when driving in the UK?

We were not on the streets..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

What did i know ?

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We all went to grammer schools

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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She found it foreign!.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Eum labore eaque vel aspernatur magnam modi rem.

Put me off passion for life!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Do you anal play alone?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

So, i spoilt her more .

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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I don,t even have a pension.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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One cannot live in the past .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

This is soul school!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Comes on , in middle age.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Ive learnt so much.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

All the time i was locked up.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I write beautiful poetry .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

It was going to be , some day.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I will be 64.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was seconnd youngest,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

When she asked me how she looked .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

So whats the point in blame.

But, we were locked up after school.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But it wasn’t much.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I waited trembling.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I was scared of men, in general

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She married twice! .

And i lived it daily.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I could never make a relationship work though!

(And it was in our own minds.)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im still living with it.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I couldn’t, believe it.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was 9 years of age.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She wouldn,t have been !

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I have no regrets .

He knew the spot.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My family never makes their pension either.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My life is so biszare .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I said to her

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Would this be the day?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Who then, do I blame.?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She was in good health!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But ive been too sick for many years..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I think the readers, may guess!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was very sick at this time too.

She loved him until the end.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!